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The Windows Need Cleaning

It’s early April and right now the sun is pouring through the living room windows getting ready to slide behind the houses across the street. The sky is crystalline blue. After a long walk earlier this afternoon the dog is … Continue reading

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Receiving

The doctors needed to consult amongst themselves. Hospice needed to weigh in and review my father’s needs and abilities. It wasn’t until the Friday before New Year’s that papers were signed and a schedule for service was agreed upon, a … Continue reading

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Asking

“How are you feeling?” “Not good,” came weakly in response to the cardiologist’s question. “Are you in pain?” “No,” my father answered. “Are you uncomfortable?” “Yes.” I knew there’d be a follow-up to that question. I helped my father out … Continue reading

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One Step At a Time

There was a notch out of his ear. Just a small one near the top, but noticeable. He was sitting in the wheelchair waiting for his next appointment and I couldn’t help noticing his ears. They were so much bigger … Continue reading

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Seeing Red; Feeling Blue

I woke up early, checking my phone for the results overnight, hoping that the sea of red in middle America had somehow dissolved into blue. It hadn’t.  I was in shock, trying to figure out what had happened and how … Continue reading

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It’s a Small World

There were four flights in total: Ranong to Bangkok, Bangkok to Tokyo, Tokyo to Chicago and Chicago to Albany. More or less 10,000 miles, backwards across the International Date Line and 12 time zones. Grueling seems too soft a word … Continue reading

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Saying Goodbye, Coda

Thick clouds hung just above the mountains. The rain was going to start again soon. It was late Tuesday afternoon and I was flying out of my sleepy provincial airport that hosted only one airplane, with flights twice daily to … Continue reading

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Saying Goodbye, Part III

My final days in Thailand were a jumble. The news of my father’s health; the decision to cut short my time in the Peace Corps; the persistent, suffocating aloneness; the packing; the indeterminate plans for an indeterminate future all kept … Continue reading

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Saying Goodbye, Part II

As I was beginning my second year in Thailand I found I was sleeping less. I was waking up at 4 AM, then 3 AM, and not being able to fall back asleep. I blamed it on the mattress and … Continue reading

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Saying Goodbye, Part I

It was New Year’s Day 2014, cold and gray. Albany hadn’t seen much snow yet and the ground was bare. I boarded Amtrak’s Lake Shore Limited mid-morning and headed west. When I arrived in Buffalo, in the dark, the snow … Continue reading

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